My heart sings

Haha. The love-sick fool is back with more updates on her meeting with her crush again today! :D

Yup. My heart sings. There's nothing else that I can use to express this wonderful feeling of being head over heels in love with someone whom you can never seem to get enough of. Once again, I ALWAYS happen to only be able to meet her when I least expect it. Which of course, makes my slow heart beat race.

I didn't manage to see her this morning even though I purposely went to the school library in the morning. Didn't see her bag. Of course, I was disappointed. And then, of ALL things, my friend told me that the first person she saw in the school canteen was her. I flipped out completely. But I would be really weird of me to just rush to the canteen, not buying anything, just to see her. It would make me too obvious. And therefore, the day passed.

On a side note, my Project Work Supervising Tutor freaking flipped my group's project with just a simple question. We then realised how messed up it really was and tried to correct it. However, every single point was tied down with another point. It was really difficult to come to a proper conclusion as to what to do with the current state of our PW. Really tormenting.

At the end of school, I was lamenting about the fact that I still had General Paper consultation with my tutor, but oh god, now I want to thank her so much for the extra consultation.

My friend, Carissa, left together after the consultation to go home. After crossing the bridge, it was when I saw her, standing at the bus stop waiting for the bus home. I thanked that bus driver and my teacher inwardly as I pretended not to see her and continue talking to Carissa. We were talking about school stuff and having to retain and depressing shit like that.

The bus arrived, all three of us got on it. Same thing with the train. Then Carissa left at her stop. A group of boys were blocking my view of her and they never seemed to leave. I felt that since it was such a rare chance for me to be able to take the same train home with her, I felt that I should at least say hi, or greet her for a change. I steadied my heart as much as I could as I walked across to her train carriage. And there she was, hugging her bag and nodding off with her earphones plugged in, just like that day that I first noticed that she took the same route as I did. I was so tempted to go up to her and say hi. However, just like the previous time, I could only gather enough strength so as to  greet her. I was successful. As it neared my stop, I walked closer to her and tapped her lightly on the arm to wake her up. I then smiled and waved at her goodbye. She looked really sleepy, just as I do now. I keep typing wrong stuff. My heart soared and I couldn't stop grinning this evening. My legs were really wobbly after that greeting though.
(edit: okay, i admit that i had to refrain myself from going to kiss her sleepy forehead before running off. i would've loved it, but if it jeopardises our current relationship of friends/senior-junior, i would definitely regret it.)

Oh well, I'm really really sleepy, so, I'll take a power nap.

Ta-ta for now, peeps!
<3. Zweiister
(can't believe i was falling asleep when I was typing. this)